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Sunday, April 17, 2005

i wish i know why.
i'm in the room, with my mom for the past 10mins and i haven spoke to her. neither did she speak to me.
she's like a stranger to me now. what actually happened?
i wish i know why.
we wasnt like that in the past.
i hope i'm just being overly sensitive.

i went to 'visit' Mister MSJ with jiawen and melfie.
the feeling was so unreal and i cannot imagine his body being buried inside.
he's so close to us, yet we cant speak to him anymore. its a regret and pity. i regretted walking past him without really speaking to him when he's still with us.
but now, i guess its too late. But if he is still around, i hope he knows that we still love him and he lives in our memory forever.
luckily melfie was with us, if not we sure in a loss of what to do.
there was this weird old man kept laughing at us abt us not taking his advices, blah blah blah.
and i feel that the muslim cemetary is a very holy place.
it didnt give me those shivers but instead the feeling of warmth and sense of belonging.
i donno why i feel this way. it gives me a special feeling.
i would wanna pay my respect to him again if possible.

godblessme.please*
i hope things will turn well from tomorrow onwards.